i feel lethergic.
i feel like i'm losing my patience very easily ):

i've heard stuff abt 36.
i'm aware of the exclusive thing.
but its so difficult to just walk away...
i wonder, does anyone else think the same way as me?
arghh, i hope things get better as time goes by.
actually sometimes it gets a little lonely.
like, i don't feel a sense of belonging.
too sensitive? insecure? lost?
i dunno.
i mean, finding a good buddy buddy in jc ain't easy.
it takes time, i guess.
ariel just told me how much she missed being in a girls school and i admit, i miss that kind of environment too.
where you don't really need to care abt your image, where you're among familiar people.
as much as its time to move on, a part of me still yearns to hold on to the past.

okay, i shall spend my march holidays wisely.
and try to stop worrying abt youth retreat.

to you. what you typed almost made my heart break. i know we havent been talking much. yes, i know what you mean by the one way friendship thing. sometimes, i thought of letting go. but after reading your post, i can't do it. in fact, its selfish of me to think this way. so we're gonna have to overcome changes and the distance apart to keep this friendship going (: thankyou for reminding me how much i mean to you. you mean a lot to me too. i know it takes two to clap so i'll do my part cos i really don't want us to become like strangers. and i don't want to hurt you either. ahhh, don't think so much please.


i'm sick of looking at your back.