i dunno what to think.
my head hurts.
i just wish you wouldn't be so negative abt yourself.
deep in my heart, i know things would be different if you didnt think this way.
of cos its not entirely your fault.
get on with life man.
don't keep everything to yourself.
cos we still need you as a chair, the chair in whom we once had so much faith in.


hmm i still feel rather moody.
empty. torn. inside.


i HATE sticking to a timetable. i feel RESTRICTED.
and i really HATE the pressure from school.
just cos we're supposedly the smartest batch thats why their expectations are so high.
WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL.
i'm supposed to get good grades for the school, not for myself. cos i don't even have such high expectations of myself. at least not at this moment.
WHAT THE HELL.


the appraisal thingy with sharron was super weird.

i'm gonna miss you, smallkid ):