all of you, thanks ah, for being so irritating.
i know you hate us. find fault with us.
just seeing your faces really puts me off okay.
even if you say we're bias to them.
they deserve it.
they're definitely much better than all of you.
disappointed. there's no use being so nice to all of you anyway.
you think its so easy to just say you don't want to be in the main squad?
argh thats just plain selfish.
we put you in there for a reason okay.
we'll see how you cope when you take over.

sometimes, i wish i can hurry up pass out so that i don't have to bother or think so much abt this kind of things. but then again, i worry. pastor says worry is the greatest thief of joy. how true.

i want to continue living in my world.
but its not possible cos my nightmare is starting soon.
roar. stupid o levels.
i don't care if some of my hmk are not done.
one thing i know for sure, i can't bear to leave cedar.
fairytales don't exist, do they?

koko brokedown. ty and i were obviously shocked. it was the second time for me. actually i dunno how long her tough exterior can last. she's really a person thats almost impossible to get close to. but sl and hll asked me to take care of her. oh help. i didnt know things were so complicated. ayee when she's with her gang, i back off. dunno if she senses how i feel but whatever. hope that the new year will be better. hey koko, ty and i are always here for you. be as shiny as the new hairband or even shinier hahah. being with her can be so relaxing but then again, i dunno how long this will last. so insecure.

and i ask myself, who will be there for me?

new year resolution: don't be so selfish. and keep my promises.

ok and i know some people love attracting attention. hurh. if i were given a choice, i don't want to be in ddbbll. but obviously i cannot tell you straight in the face. some people just don't click. and yeah i can feel i'm extra. i can feel they think the same.